Today I’m linking up with Jana’s Stream of Consciousness Sunday prompt. Here are the ‘rules’:
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Today’s (completely) optional prompt: Blessings
Now that I am in the process of allowing myself to fully grieve the loss of Kim (or I would like to be, but that’s another story) I find it easier to think about what it is in my life that has truly blessed me. I am honoured to finally feel a sort of control over this grieving thing.
It is a shame it has taken me this long to reach out to others, but I am blessed to have the strength to do so, and to have others to whom I can reach out. I have companions for the journey, and that in itself makes it easier to grieve. (Or should- now I’m still my own worst enemy.)
I’ve been blessed with a mind that just will not let things go. I can do as much grief management as I like, and a week later, I will have to do some of the same stuff again. Even now, knowing all of the factors that ‘feed into’ my grief, I am having a little difficulty coming to terms with it, and allowing myself to finally feel what I need to.
Although it’s more likely that I’m just more comfortable thinking myself to death over what happened. There’s only so much analysis anybody can do, and I think I might just be taking that to new levels. I hope I can find some peace now that I have taken the decision to find support. I am lucky enough to be blessed with the strength to reach out, and the wish to move forward, even if it is hard. I don’t know how I’ll get there, or where I’m heading to- I just know that one day, I will. And I am blessed, whatever my choices.
That was my SOC Sunday post. If you want to join in, follow the rules above, and link up over at Jana’s place.
Wishing you peace and strength on your journeys,