Strange and empty


Is this even logically possible? The other side of Christmas, and I’ve had a really good week…again ‘good’ here means I haven’t really thought about Chris at all in a positive, or negative way.

(Is that good? I never considered how one is supposed to define it in terms of thinking or not thinking about the person who has passed.) I always thought it was good if I was able to think about her for some stretch of time without chest pain. That seems to be the sign that I’ve over thought things. If I notice that I’m in pain, I immediately try to divert the thoughts. Don’t know that that’s the way to deal with it, but works for me. Three and a half years out, I don’t know exactly how things should work. Suggestions appreciated.

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About Casey Bottono

I am in love with language. I write poetry and fiction in a wide variety of genres. Most recently, I have been shortlisted as a finalist in the Coalition of Texans with Disabilities' Pen2Paper contest.
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One Response to Strange and empty

  1. spirit2go says:

    My congratulations on making it to the other side of Christmas….it will be 3 years out for me on January 25. True words: there is no right way and no wrong way – there’s the way that works for you. I recently read that when a painful remembrance or thought comes across your mind – you are supposed to replace it (or try to) with a positive one. Sounds like what you’re doing. And we go on……..

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