I hope this post finds you well. Today, I have turned to poetry to express my feelings about the absence of the Harrison forum, and why this has proved so challenging for me. Perhaps some of you might be able to relate to this poem, because words are so often all we have and all that remain of our friendships if an online friend passes.
You ask what’s more important:
our words or the memories?
There is no ‘more important’,
The words are how I remember.
Some things must come full circle
Others must surely end
But neither of these are testament
to unending love for a friend.
Yes, some things are forgotten
I cling to others still
I don’t intend to let them go
And perhaps I never will.
If I seem to grumble
I wish you could see
The reason why such simple things
Mean so much to me
Although to you they’re only words
Because I write, they’re gold
A reminder of the path she walked
And the mark she made on my soul.
It might seem like more of the same, but whatever I may claim, I write mostly so that I can keep Chris’ memory alive. She was such a champion of my creativity whilst she was physically present that it only seems right to continue writing about the feelings I have now she’s no longer here.
At the minute it feels like I’m chasing my tail, but I guess grief is like that sometimes. I hope to be able to continue to blog over the next couple of weeks, but I may take a break, depending on whether the inspiration is present or not. It is a gift to be able to share this journey with you as part of trying to improve the wider world’s understanding of the significance of online friends and online friendship.
If anybody out there reading wants to share something, please feel free to get in touch using the contact form. I will respond to all suggestions, and would welcome guest posts if anybody is interested in writing about their experience of online friendship or online loss.
Wishing you peace and strength on your journeys,